Monday, March 9, 2009

My Sweet Revenge


My Sweet Revenge

Having gone from a very humble beginning is not new to anyone. I have always been honest and clear to people whenever they want to know, be inquisitive or curious about me. I always tell people how life was hard and finding the next meal of the day was such an everyday struggle. I have never been ashamed to tell them that I come from a poor family.

During my childhood years I have regularly experienced embarrassments because we were poor. And a close relative at one point even denied me not being related to the family because of our hand to mouth existence.

I was already working in Manila that time. I told one of my workmates who was assigned in Pangasinan to say hello if ever she encounters my relative. And she said yes of course. When she came back in the office, I was excited asking her if she was able to meet the person to whom I was proud saying that we were closely related. And she said yes but she was sorry to tell me that my relative didn’t know anyone named Susie.

I was nearly in tears upon hearing that. And all I said was, “Of course, she only knows rich people. How could she know me? I am just a poor girl”.
In high school, I have got relatives who have openly snubbed me. They tried to put me down and took every opportunity to step on me. I was trying to look tough and pretended not to be affected and nobody knew that my heart was bleeding and I was in pain. I cried all my heart out and began asking, “Why are they doing these to me?” I just didn’t realize that I was being prepared to become tough in facing other more difficult challenges. I call them blessings now.

I remember this person who tried to console me when I was in the darkest moment of my life. When I thought that it was the end of the world because people around me were being hard on me. And he said, “ Kill them with kindness. That’s the best revenge you could offer.”

I have always been a fighter. I remember one of my grand aunts called me the “fighter” because even when I was not even going to school I was already that exuberant kind of girl and never was intimated by adults.

Years have passed by. I had continually encountered so much difficulties in life. I have experienced frustrations, hunger, deceptions, sorrows and joys as well. And I am thankful for all those ups and downs. I call them again blessings.
I am blessed with a family who is tightly-knit. I am also blessed with a husband who is so loving and a good provider. Without his love and support, I will not be able to do what I am doing now.

Whenever I get the chance to go home in the Philippines, I never forget to say hello to my family and relatives. I am always happy to see and bond with them. And share whatever I have. Time has changed and attitude as well. Painful past has been forgotten and been replaced by more love and forgiveness.

At one point, in one of the family reunions, this very relative of mine who denied knowing me came to me and embraced me saying, “Ading, let’s forgive and forget.” That’s the sweetest words ever heard from her.

All I can say is that, in life we never know what the future has in store for us. Sometimes you can be on top and sometimes, you can be at the bottom.

And no matter what kind of life we get, what kind of people we become, we should never forget to look back where we came from. Let’s practice humility and kindness to others.
In that way, we could proudly say….”this is my life’s sweet revenge”…. Caring and killing others in kindness.


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